This Isn’t About Bali…

A few months ago, I never would have imagined I’d end up here, and no I don’t mean the other side of the world… that was the ONE thing I actually knew (okay maybe not in Bali but I did originally plan on being in Australia)!

What I didn’t expect…that I would actually begin to build a life in alignment with who I am all because I could FINALY here my own voice.

I know to some this may sound silly “what do you mean you weren’t living a life for yourself?”

But here’s the thing: back home we may have started to move away from the idea of needing to have everything figured out, but we still tend to walk a very linear path. University leads to work, maybe a bit of travel in between, only to realize a year or two later that an office was never where you were meant to be.

Or, we begin to question the structure we were given, and at the same time feel paralyzed by the freedom we’re offered.

Yet in both, the same questions keep surfacing: What can you do? What should you do?

You get pulled into an endless cycle of searching for answers, all while circling the same question…the big one: purpose…

What’s my purpose?

See, the more I asked, the farther away I seemed to get. I was so fixated on figuring out what to do with my life, what I was passionate about, and of course asked way to many people for their opinions. I had plenty of ideas, but it wasn’t until somewhere between losing my footing and starting again that I began to uncover the pieces of myself I knew had always been there…not lost, just hidden beneath everything I had been carrying.

It took time, and learning how to truly calm my mind and nervous system to finally hear my own voice. And it has been the greatest gift I could have given myself.

I didn’t move to Bali to reinvent myself. I had no plan, no timeline, not even a clue what the next day would look like. I stayed because I knew the other option was returning to a life that no longer felt like mine. The thing that actually made the difference… finally getting honest with myself.

I don’t fully know what I’m doing here, or how much of this I’ll keep sharing, but something in me feels called to share this chapter because it’s becoming one of the most fulfilling and purposefully parts of my life yet.

I hope this can be your reminder that it’s okay not to have all the answers yet. It’s okay to explore, to shift, to exist in the in-between. You don’t have to move countries to build a life you love, my path just happened to lead me away from Canada because something in me knew I no longer felt connected there.

If anything I share helps you even a little, whether you’re looking for inspiration, trying to understand what you’re passionate about, or simply wanting to create a life that feels more like you, then opening up here is worth it. I know that’s what the little girl in me would have wanted.

You’re allowed to build a life that feels honest and true to who you are… and it doesn’t have to involve quitting your job or flipping your whole life upside down to get there.

Xo.

Cass

P.S. (If you spot a spelling mistake, even with spellcheck, let’s call it character… it was written from the heart, not perfection)

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